Ok, so this certainly isn’t my usual style of post – but I figured it’s as good a place for my thoughts as any. So here goes. I’ve been having a bit of a case of blogging fatigue recently – not something I really anticipated when I left my full time job to do this. Now, blogging fatigue does not mean I don’t love blogging anymore – I do, I *really really* do. I am still in my happy place when at my desk tapping away or setting up shots to take for the reviews etc. But I think there’s something not quite right at the moment – it might be general life getting in the way. Which believe me, feels 100% lame when I’ve always had a full time job to juggle in the mix until this year – so it’s not lack of time – bit maybe a bit of a lack of head space?! Not that ‘lack of head space’ is any less lame than thinking it’s a lack of time. But with various freelance projects, a new puppy (which takes a WHOLE LOT more energy and time than I probably naively expected) plus planning a wedding (also, like the puppy – takes probably a lot more energy and time than expected…), a combination of other life things like weddings for best friends or birthday celebrations and the like. Whatever it is, life has been perhaps directing some of the ‘spare’ energy I used to reserve for blogging a the point when it was full time work and blogging. So whilst previously when I was working full time that lack of energy probably knocked on to my other life things, I didn’t see friends as much as I do now etc, didn’t prioritise some of the things I do now. Which is awesome, it feels more balanced and I absolutely love how things are day to day – but I do feel the blog is suffering whilst I am focussing on other things and needs a bit of a shake up, even if only from my selfish point of view as the blogger!
To be honest, I don’t totally know why I’m putting this out there. But I guess it’s just a way of trying to be open about this slightly bizarre world of blogging – I always want my blog to be the best it can possibly be. As a blogger, I (and I suspect other bloggers) probably find it a very rare moment where you look at your blog overall and aren’t at least a little self-critical. Maybe that photo could have been better, that video edited a bit more creatively, your blog design a bit more vibrant, worded differently…whatever it is, there’s always something to niggle at yourself for. Not the healthiest things to do at all – as when I think of my blog as a whole, I am SO proud of it – it’s my little baby that started from absolutely nothing! But then there’s the dangerous case of the green eyed monster – when you perhaps read other blogs and can’t help but compare. I do read a lot of other blogs – they’re great for inspiration, but when you’re maybe having a bit of a case of your own blogging fatigue, it can be a bit risky as you end up just feeling worse.
I guess one reason I want to put this out there is to see what you lovely folk (anyone reading this) think and what you might like to see more of on the blog. I’d love to do some more London based stuff, food reviews, more travel stuff. Maybe even some more fasion bits (although you’re never going to get a ground breaking outfit from me) and I do love beauty and products and always will – but would you perhaps like to see more edits/round ups rather than single product reviews? Anything I just don’t do at the moment you would like to see? I do of course want to do more regular You Tube videos, but I think the blogging fatigue thing just means my brain hasn’t been in the right place and I’m not really one to do something like that if it’s half-arsed.
I’m trying hard not to be mad at myself for having this bout of blogging fatigue, reminding myself that I’ve been posting pretty much daily with the odd exception for over five years now – but it’s hard not to be annoyed at myself when I’m finally doing the thing I’ve always dreamed of and then have a phase of being uninspired! But I guess it was bound to happen at some point. Part of me wants to take a week off to have a proper break and come back feeling a bit more inspired and ready to blog some awesome stuff. But the other part of me doesn’t want to take a break at all and just wants to snap out of it! I suppose the ironic thing is that’s it’s not even that anything about my blog isn’t really going well – but at the same time I’m just having that ‘meh’ phase that’s not exactly ideal.
That’s probably more than enough waffling on for now I think. Apologies for the interlude in usual posts – but felt I might as well throw it out there in an effort to spark things up again. Let me know if you’re a blogger and have felt the same at some point or if you’re a reader and have some ideas as I mentioned above about things you would like to see more of!
Fingers crossed this little vent/share might help snap me out of this blogging fatigue and get back on it. Either way – thank you so much for reading xx